我怀念那个叫靠近的声音
May 20th, 2007
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我怀念中学时那个炎日的午后你向我打听小羊的消息时, 眼里发光的样子, 像一个小男孩向圣诞老人窃窃私语着那年的圣诞礼物那样, 充满着阳光和希望.
我怀念那个静得只有秒针滴答声的午夜, 两双耳朵死命贴在小小收音机旁, 有take that的动人旋律, 还有一种叫靠近的声音. 第一次, 我发现窗外的长角怪兽其实并不可怕.
我怀念你不去踢球的傍晚, 我们骑着摩哆懒懒的聊着. 虽然你的话一大半都被迎面而来的风吹得东歪西倒, 像尾巴到处飞的豆芽音符, 我却隐隐听见小小精灵在我耳边随着音符起舞的叮银笑声.
我怀念每个清晨我们步行上学的短短十分钟, 我忘了我们都聊些什么, 却记得青草被雨淋过的清新味有渗带着牛奶糖的幸福味道. 难怪朋友都说我是个幸福的小公主.
后来的后来, 你好像突然变成一个快乐小天使. 一个自作聪明的快乐小天使.
后来的后来, 我的话变多了, 因为你什么都不说.
后来的后来, 一切都很好变成了你的口头弹, 虽然一切都不好.
后来的后来, 我和阿小聊起你的时候, 除了 ‘他说他很好’, 我们什么都不知道.
我真的相信报喜不报忧是一个长大的表现. 毕竟我一直都那么相信你.
直到我发现原来阿小不吃这一套.
直到我发现我需要依靠未卜先知的特异功能来梦见你的近况 (用多了会不灵的呐…)
直到我发现原来只有喜讯的消息让人快乐得不安全.
我才惊觉, 报喜不报忧原来并不那么伟大.
我才恍悟, 其实报告坏消息也可以很乐观又让人安然.
像一个一夜长大的婴孩, 我才发现那个叫靠近的声音, 听起来那么近, 却是一直在回忆里…
but i am really ok wor :).
dont worry. Life is good here.
May 20, 2007 @ 3:29 amyou are a lovely sis ^^
May 21, 2007 @ 3:11 pmalvin your head big liao, ya sis sound abit ‘unhappy’… sigh, js look back on all those good old days, is it not enough to make u feel like com’g home? actually i rili understand how good the weather, culture thr are, girls thr also prettier, sexier =P…same thing here mate, but still i feel like going back to the ‘ulu’ pasar tht we have, padang KPS, batang lupar, benak,teh tarik at azreen…. tht’s whr we belong…i rili hope i can see u in Sri Aman drink at nono, eat the mee goreng tht u intro to me.. instead of see u in us or uk…hopefully tht’ll not b 30 years later… coz i’m not sure if any of us can live tht long my fren.
May 21, 2007 @ 11:51 pmp/s: yeawen, i think he is fine, dont worry =)
p/ss: weiping, i think ya sis just miss u too much…. she is lonely without ya, your family too…
big head alvin- we need description dude! lotsa description! you know girls…i mean ladies…oh ya, uncle tau and the queen were jumping with joy bouncing around snapping the flowers you sent, according to the charlie’s angels… thanks for making their day! and mine ;)
w- thanks for not using the words oversensitive and busybody :p
howge- u’re right..i miss him badly…………. hey people! what’s wrong with all this evil misery?! do i sound that pathetic? i just hate it when everytime i write, it turns out to be sth sentimental and melancholy…
May 22, 2007 @ 2:11 pmya…mom and dad are really happy till every morning need to look at tht flower once before they go to work…
May 24, 2007 @ 2:03 am老姐，牧羊座的男生真的就是这样。我想，老哥都会迎刃而解吧～可能我们每次问他时，他可能都已经解决掉了。所以他都会说：“我很好！”虽然每次也是很希望他能够吐出一点苦水，但，他还是老话一句！
KO，你该不会在逞强吧？！
p/s:when 3 of us become charlie’s angels liao?i thought we are SHE lah ^o^