最后一次流泪是什么时候
October 18th, 2007
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我今天看电影, 竟然没有流泪.
Will Smith 抱着儿子用脚顶着厕所门, 那种自责又无奈的一刻, 我肯定会先撑着, 然后鼻子一酸热泪盈眶.
Brad Pitt 在电话的另一端听到儿子的声音想放声大哭又必需小心掩饰的那一幕, 那种既压抑又渴望释放的熟悉感, 我一定会听着自己的心跳声哽咽着.
可是我都没有. 看着这两个情节的时候, 我想的不是故事的后续发展, 也不是演员的精湛演技; 而是, 我竟然不在故事里! 我怎么不流泪? 我怎么还在这里?!
电影一直是我生活里的慰藉. 我喜欢一个人看电影, 没有爆米花没有可乐, 因为我总爱和戏里的每一个人拼肩而行, 就像我们是彼此认识的. 直到片尾曲牵着演员名单缓缓升起时, 就是我重新振作面对生活的时刻.
当这种融入感不再时, 我慌了.
就像有一天你驱车出门突然发现车辆不再是靠你熟悉的方向行驶般, 那阵无措的慌.
这种电影是电影我是我的事实, 是一种被人遗弃的落寞. 我顿时觉得生活失衡了. 负能量输不出, 我像个瘫痪的人般愣着起不来.
除了睡眠不足留下的泪, 我大概也不太记得最后一次流泪是什么时候了.
May be you are lost for a little while, but do not think that you being abandoned by everyone. May be you have not met what you want so far, but do not think that is the end of the world. Cry out loud when neccessary, do not let your emotion control your destiny.
October 20, 2007 @ 2:41 amLaugh when you happy too. =) cheers!
October 20, 2007 @ 3:00 pmFun sister- wow, that really inspires me… thanks, i know you’ve been through alot too… told mum u’ve started your work, we’re so glad to hear that:) ‘do not let your emotion control your destiny’- i like this one…
W- hey, selamat hari raya! maaf zahir dan batin! :) yeah, cheers! cry out loud and laugh like a moron! miss those good old days…
October 21, 2007 @ 2:25 amhey hey….dun too upset….cheer up~~~where is the super sot sendiri da jie? dun like tht lah…i miss the full of passion de da jie^^ i miss u….d too tired…sometimes sayang u ureself lah….
October 21, 2007 @ 4:05 amPLEASE REMEMBER ….HAPPY GO LUCKY~~~
BELIEVE URSELF…..
@nnie- hey hey…i’m working on it… dun worry, when u come back later, i’ll show you my morning sun smile… promise… u take care there…
October 22, 2007 @ 11:00 amalvin js moved to toronto, he asked me to visit, if only i’ve money, i’ll go and drag him back to live with u in tht BIG house tht u’r living in. pls dont always lock yourself in tht ‘big house’, walk out from it, life’s too short for sorrow ;)
October 24, 2007 @ 11:54 amrmber, ME & WEI PING r always thr, even tho we might be little bit far away.
The sun dont always shine, but rain dont always pour either. when the sun shine, we cheer together, whn the rain pour, hand in hand we walk it through.
howge- haha…why do you sound like i’m turning into the grumpy old lady sitting beside me? well, i hang out with friends after my office hours and the kids during my weekend art classes, so dont worry… i need to figure out some time for myself…maybe i’ll drop the sunday art class.. everyone says it’s not worth… sigh…still measuring…. typical libran type…hiakhiak…
October 25, 2007 @ 10:49 amu’re getting nearer remember… c ya soon!
i havent move yet. Nov 5th is THE date though. Kinda scary + excited, mostly because it will be a total stranger city for me - I dont have any friends up there.
but i will be fine, like always :).
October 27, 2007 @ 5:56 pmkoko- no fret, with your charming smile and gorgeous big potato head, everyone will love alvin ;) just keep your smile wide open. we miss you!
October 28, 2007 @ 3:19 am